My Disability Experience

I was in my room, thinking that saying by Martin Luther king, `the ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy. It had been a boring day, sitting in my room thinking of those people who called me Soma because I had a disabled left hand,I was thinking of all the sports I was denied to play in school because of my condition ,the pain I would feel after walking long distances ,the feeling of not being like others and just the thought that what do people think about me

Tears started rolling down my face and I couldn’t help it, I texted some of my friends asking them random questions .I really needed answers ,I looked at my Paralympics medals and I hated them soo much .Went on the internet ,started to search about disability and I couldn’t get answers .Some thoughts told me that disability is a natural part of a broken world and I was like well God yours is a mended world so the truth is just that I am not working out my salvation or it isn’t your time yet.22 years could not convince me to accept it .

Suddenly a bible verse popped into me John 9;2-7 And his disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?” Jesus answered, “It was not that this man sinned, or his parents, but that the works of God might be displayed in him. We must work the works of him who sent me while it is day; night is coming, when no one can work. As long as I am in the world, I am the light of the world.” Having said these things, he spat on the ground and made mud with the saliva. Then he anointed the man’s eyes with the mud

After I read this portion of the scripture, I felt that it wasn’t anyone that did wrong so that I would grow this way. Yolanda one of my friends sent me a verse from Jeremiah which says that I knew you before you were out of your mothers womb, another one told me to brush off my thoughts, the other one told me to be delightful in the sport I was doing.

So I have this to say ,well disability is a different ability .Everyone is unique in his or her own way .Ever think of Nick Vujivic ,sportsmen like Oscar Pictorious ,Elliot Mujaji and ,musicians like Somandla ndebele and Salif Keita.You have to differentiate between suffering and serving a different purpose. At times we think that we are suffering devilish curses but in real fact we will be serving unique purposes because there is no one who can do what you are doing because of that uniqueness in you.

Psalm 139;13-14For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. This verse really explains why we should smile everyday day. If you have an infirmity, work out your salvation and if you are serving a different purpose in God ,continue doing so with gladness and joy ,for in the fullness of time…

Thank you Partakers

4 thoughts on “My Disability Experience

  1. So this blog is something that I will comment on as if am also blogging myself kkkkkkkkkkkkk.

    Anyways this is something that I also need to talk about as I have been in the same scenario from another perspective. The bible says in Revelation 12:11, They triumphed over him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony;. I also believe that testimonies help others who are like what I was years ago.

    I was born with a heritable skin disease known as Atopic Eczema, it was not really that serious until I reached my teens, it depressed me like I don’t know, only a depressed person can understand this. I remember everyday crying myself to sleep in bed wondering why why me Lord? It even got worse cause at that time I used to be teased in the school bus that, I was boarding to school. I really felt depressed to the point of wanting to commit suicide. Thank God for a friend from church and a friend she was and is still is. God spoke to her to talk to me about my situation at the right time and I guess she had also prayed about it as well in the written letter to her, because I immediately understood what she was saying and the Holy Spirit had opened my spiritual eyes so that I could understand exactly what I needed to understand. She gave me that verse Psalms 139:14 “I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.” I look back and wonder really why did I ever want to commit suicide like seriously why?

    Fast forward, I remember after I graduated from Uni sometime later I really got seriously ill with the sick issue and I was like really? Is it me, who has so many sins, does God really care and love me and I remember my mum was practically my physical, emotional and spiritual strength at the time, I had resolved that I will not talk to God till he tells me what was going on cause I was in pain. Thank God, He took her after this incident! A pastor came to me and opened the bible to John 9:1-41, it answered all my questions.

    The reason I smile is because I know that God loves me the way I am and I also love Him in a way that I can’t explain. You won’t see me looking for a prophet who will pray for me so that it goes away why? Because God has told me that His grace is sufficient for me, for His power is made perfect in weakness, 2 Corinthians 12:9. In His time he has promised greater things for me. Neither am I going to look for any anointing oils of holy water. You will be shocked how many people have come to me and asked me which church are you going to, I tell them and they be like chimbouya kwedu so that the pastor prays for you zvipere and am like seriously? I can pray for myself thank you. John 1:12 “Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God.” Period! Jesus came so that we can have a relationship with Him and the Father.

    As my partner here has said, ‘If you have an infirmity, work out your salvation and if you are serving a different purpose in God ,continue doing so with gladness and joy ,for in the fullness of time…’ I serve him with all joy and gladness cause there is none like Him my Yahweh!

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